Finally got a fill!

So my last post was hoping I was going to get a fill at my appt on 2/19. Well that didn't happen. I had to wait 2 more weeks before I could get it. After several (7-8) attempts in the office, I was scheduled for the procedure room at munson on 3/3 on my day off. I spend way too much time at that place.
I made it to my appt, and left with 1.5cc more in my band than I went in with. It was about time.
Unfortunately, it hasn't been all rosy and fun since then. I feel like I have been the same staged diet that I was on after surgery. At least now I can keep down clear and full liquids. For the day and a half that followed my fill I didn't keep anything down.
I was so freaked out that by thursday morning I had an appt scheduled with Dr K. To say I was more than a little worried that my band may have slipped is putting it mildly! I figured with my luck it was bound to happen. By the time my appt came I was able to keep down coffee, juice, milk and even a half a container of yogurt. We decided to hold off on trying to take anything out of my band. My next adjustment is scheduled for 3/31 in the procedure room again. I'm just trying to stay positive until then. I haven't eat, sorry, drank much of anything this last week. I'm sure I will have a loss tomorrow at tops. It better be worth it. Cuz man I would do just about anything at this point to be able to eat a steak! Well anything that is more filling than apple juice and Popsicles. Even a protein shake sounds good. Now that's bad. Maybe tomorrow will be easier. There's me trying to be positive. Are you convinced? Me either.
I am looking forward to scrapbooking thou. Less than 2 weeks to go. I am going to try to get another updated photo. I am so close to being officially down 50lbs. Now after all this I am ready to get back to work. Nothing worse than having too much time on your hands to know exactly how miserable you feel. See, I am really am a ray of sunshine!

Until next time
~Jennifer~

Wish me luck for my Dr K. appt (fill?) on 2/19

So just one last thought before I tuck myself into bed.

Wish me luck as I see Dr. K. tom. My last appt, he tried to do a "fill" but with all the swelling from seroma & the incision site being open we couldn't do it.

I have Jello made & packed with some juice for my lunch/dinner after my appt tom. Since after a fill, its clear liquids for the rest of the day.

I will say another pray before bed hope for the best. I'm ready to start on a long loosing streak!

~Princess Jenn~

So much to do, so little free time

So I admit I have not been as good about this blog as I intended to be. It’s been a long couple of weeks.
Well first things first. My incision is so close to being healed up. It’s only about the size of the tip of a q-tip. I’m getting anxious, ok, been there a while. I want to go to water aerobics so bad. I’ve had my enrollment & payment slip ready since Dec. I was about to start when I found out I had to have surgery in the first place.

My weight has been pretty much staying still. What I gained while I was sick, I took back off. It didn’t seem fair, I still felt like I was at my lower weight, but the scale said otherwise. All that coughing had to have burned some calories. But I’m moving on.

At tops, I got a new job. I am now the weight recorder. My very 1st night, I had 2 new ppl that joined. Talk about jumping in with both feets.

As far as everything else goes, aka my mental status, motivation, slips and like. I am doing okay. I have pretty much stay on an even stride with my motivation. I have a few of my before photo’s pinned, taped and hanging up in my home. On the bathroom mirror, on my nightstand, in my purse, by the tv and of course on on the fridge. This keeps me in check. Plus I have learned if I don’t deny myself. If I have “goodies” in the house, I can have a little and be satisfied. Where as, if I tell myself its off limits, it drives me nuts that I cannot have it.

Then last week a coworker from the hospital has lapband surgery too. Even though its a guy (and they naturally loose faster) I don’t feel like I am as alone in the journey. I have people of support at the tip of my fingers, it feels different now that its someone I have known for a while who is going thru this whole deal too. I will be able to see his success, where as I can’t always see mine. I feel how my cloths fit, and home much better I feel already.

My scrapbook keeps me motivated too. I can see my timeline, and the letter I wrote to myself that I have at the beginning of my book and see why I made the decision in the first place.

I will be seeing my sisters and niece and nephews soon. I have seen my oldest sister Michelle most recently in January. But my other sister, Amy, I am curious if she will be able to tell when she sees me. I haven’t seen her since the end of Nov. I am excited to see them regardless of whether or not they can tell. But I have lost like 25-30 more since I have seen Amy.

Now it’s getting to be past when I should have been in bed. So many things to do in such a short time, I don’t know how I get anything done during the work week. I like my long weekends, but these 12 hour days don’t leave much time for getting much done before you have to get ready to start the whole routine all over again the next day. I will be making exercise fit in there somehow. The warm pool for water aerobics sounds so good right about now.
Until then I am headed to bed! :)
As always,
~Princess Jenn~

Weekly weigh in: ( -7.75lbs )

I got my weight loss I wanted/needed so badly tonight. This has not been my best week at all. Unlike, last week when I was looking forward to weighing in at tops and then the meeting was cancelled. I was motivated, excited and ready for the new year as a bandster. Not so much this week. Don't get me wrong, I am very happy with my weight loss and having my band. I am just having issues.
It seems like if it isn't one thing, it is another. I am trying my best to take each day as it comes and make the best choices I can while trying and stay positive.
I know this is short but I really am not sure what I want to say and how to say it. I have had a migraine for a week & I'm ready for bed. I need to get myself into bed.
So until next time.
~ Jennifer ~

Back to Work = Exhaustion!

After 2 weeks of being bored out of my mind at home I got to go back to work. All the while being told, "take it easy" and "don't do to much". Well of course, I didn't because I as not nearly up for anything. With the pain and (yuck!) draining I didnt get much done in or outside of my home.

Now most people kind of ease back into work and try not to overdo it the 1st week back. Not me! I came back to work in full force. It's too much to get into by my 5 day stretch then 2 more days then 4 days off turned into 8 days in a row (with 6 days being 10-12 hrs a piece). I got home from work on Thursday night and I was so tired I fell asleep on the couch before grey's anatomy! I pulled myself off the couch at 6am long enough to let the dog out and feed the vicious guard cats before falling into my real bed. It was so nice and comfy. My dog was so good and stayed by my side as I slept the day away from sheer exhaustion. I'm surprised the poor dog still likes me since as I write this I am back to work after my not-nearly-long-enough weekend to work some more.

I took it easy, as I am still healing, that was until my sister called and said she was coming to visit. To be honest I did as little as possible since surgery since I didn't dare do anymore damage to my poor body. Well that didn't work. Apparently bending over to sweep & mop, oh yeah and litter boxes was not a good idea! I was so doggone tired & sore that when my sister called to tell me she had to turn around due to car problems I was a little relieved. Don't get me wrong,I LOVE my sister and niece deerly but it's hard enough to try to rest & heal without others around. My little button Adrianna, is so big and I knew I wouldnt be able to lift her. Ya know those times I have had to get her off the counter cuz she chased the cats up there and wanted to be near them. Duh! What better place to be near them than by their food dish! Plus there is the whole swimming issue. I can't swim with my incision still open. I miss that hot tub so much! I am way overdue for that hot tub on my back.

I didn't get to weigh in at tops on Tuesday but because of the weather it was cancelled. I would have happily weighed in anyway but no one else would have been there. And after getting a flat tire on the way to work I really couldn't anything short of a 5lbs loss. lol. So I will update after next weigh in.

But until next time!.
~ Princess Jenn ~

Back to work / Weekly weigh in: (-8lbs) YAY!!

So this is late coming since I’ve had the last 2 weeks off. But oh well, at least I got a lot of rest, done tons of reading, stayed at the “sitter’s again, been to ER again, started sorting my pictures and oh yeah, lots of practice putting pressure dressings on my incision! When this is over with, if I never see a roll of medical tape and gauze sponges ever again it will be too soon. Unlike the 1st surgery, this time I developed a seroma. After I started bleeding in Outpatient Surgery, extra blood (a lot of it too) decided to hang out in the extra tissue (from being overweight) until it was ready to come out. Of course, I didn’t know this would/could happen till after I made a visit to the ER when I couldn’t get the bleeding to stop even after putting pressure on the incision. It has been draining ever since. Then since it was still open and draining still, they wouldn’t let me go back to work until now since I work in a hospital. Ironically, Jim from work said “How long you gonna milk this one for?” as far as my time off. I think I might just say it’s his fault I wasn’t back sooner. Ok, maybe not. But I will say, Damn Deer!

Today was a good day back at work, long, but good. It was nice being back. It was good having a reason to get up in the morning. Not so early would have been nice of course.

The best part of the day? I have to say when I weighed in at tops. I came in with an 8lb loss for the last 2 weeks. I was so afraid I was going to gain again. I missed the weigh in last week because I really wasn’t feeling up to going or nearly awake enough. The week before that, and the day after surgery, I gained 4 ¼ lbs. either way, I am happy I got my last weight for 2008. So from my highest weight this year - I am ending the year with a 37.5lb loss!

I am looking forward to working toward & meeting the new, smaller Princess Jenn in 2009!

Until next time –
~ Jennifer ~

Healing

Hi All,
I am up and awake still even though it will be pushing 3am by the time I get my butt into bed. I imagine that will be coming up soon since I gave in and took my pain medicine. I have been trying to stay away from it but today I certainly over did it a little bit with litter boxes tonight. But a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.

Anyway, I'm still healing. Slowly, but surely! I still feel like I have been carved up like a turkey and I have a bruise the size of a dvd case to prove it. My incision is looking good. Ironically the bruise is surrounding my incision and not over top of it. Thank goodness! I would be lying if I said I wasn't worried about how & when it will ever finish healing. I am starting to wonder like my dad if it will burst open. My poor dad asked my mother, the nurse, what could happen to my incision after I had the incident in the hospital (before discharge with the bleeding). My mother calmly told him that it would just bleed out. His concern was that I wouldn't wake up. Mine was that I would ruin my friends sheets & bed. Now I worry about my favorite comforter and not wanting to have to miss anymore work. I feel so bad as it is. I seen a coworker tonight when I went with my dad to get my mom from work (so I could get my prescription filled). He made sure to tell me that I was missed today on Rehab. Apparently just like when I had surgery last time, it has been nothing short of crazy there. Seems to me like I picked a good time to be off. :)

Well I have rambled on enough. This pain med is making it hard to stay awake again. Besides, my puppy dog needs outside and I need to get us tucked into bed before I fall asleep on the couch again! lol
Until next time,
Princess Jenn