Lately my scale has been back and forth in the same 2-4# range for the last couple months. I’d be lying if it was just a normal plateau. I know that I haven’t been good about my exercise lately. That and I have my days where I don’t even care what I eat or don’t eat (like protein). Usually its after I have a bad food day. Those are those days where it seems like nothing goes down easily at all. No matter what it is, or how healthy it is. So there’s that part of my stalled scale.
And the other major factor to this lack of loosing? Stress
Why yes, it wouldn’t be my life if I have no stress. I honestly don’t think I would know how to function in a stress free lifestyle. But of course, we all know that is not going to happen in this lifetime or another. Even when I went for my last appt with Dr K. he told me all about stress and how it affects weight loss. Then told me go get my stress under control. I have been trying to do for sometime now. But with the holidays, winter bills starting and the new additions to my household since my sister and 2 nieces moved in with me its been harder this time around. Anyway, I digress.
Now I would be lying if I haven’t gone back and forth on the whole gaining faith, loosing faith, giving up and feeling like I’ve just been jumpstarted with a car battery with motivation. Unfortunately those jumpstarts of motivation usually happen as I am finally getting tucked nice into bed around midnight and have to be up by 6am for work the next day. Not the most opportune time to hitting the gym if I do say so myself.
But as much as I want to just give up those are the times I go back to “Before” picture. Wow, what a motivator! I never want to be that size/weight ever again. And as these holidays come quickly upon us, I will keep that image in the back of my mind to pull out as I think about reaching for something yummy and decadent off the desert table. Not saying that will stop me completely but it will remind me to take much less that I would have before surgery.
For now I better get back to work.
~ Princess Jenn ~
Monday, November 23, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
One year out, Baby
This is going to short, snappy and too the point. Since I have been a little, ok a lot, behind when I want to do an awesome all inclusive post.
Basically, I made it thru my 1st year. I'm not down as much as I had hoped and planned to be. Mostly my own fault for not being good enough with the exercise and right food choices from time to time. Then you add in all the time I lost after that damn deer accident. Then after lots and lots of patience, prayers and tears we got a good consistent amount of restriction and then scales started to move in the right (left actually) direction.
At my 1 yr post-op appt. with Dr. K. He said so far he was happy with how status considering the difficulties with the right amount of restriction for me. That made me feel so much better.
Since I was down 11lbs from appt. from 6 weeks prior we agreed to stay at the 4.2cc restriction. Why mess with a good thing? No point in adding in .10-.20cc to have to go back and take .5-1cc back out because it was too tight and causing problems.
Anyway,
this is plenty long enough! The nice hotel bed is looking warm and inviting behind me! 14 hours on a bus to get to Bloomington, MN. I can turn to my right and look out our hotel room window and see the Mall of America. Our destination! So I'm going to go rest and get ready for the days ahead. Though I must admit, it will be hard to sleep without my big ole black lab right next to me. But somehow I think I will manage. *_*
Until Next Time ~Princess Jenn~
Basically, I made it thru my 1st year. I'm not down as much as I had hoped and planned to be. Mostly my own fault for not being good enough with the exercise and right food choices from time to time. Then you add in all the time I lost after that damn deer accident. Then after lots and lots of patience, prayers and tears we got a good consistent amount of restriction and then scales started to move in the right (left actually) direction.
At my 1 yr post-op appt. with Dr. K. He said so far he was happy with how status considering the difficulties with the right amount of restriction for me. That made me feel so much better.
Since I was down 11lbs from appt. from 6 weeks prior we agreed to stay at the 4.2cc restriction. Why mess with a good thing? No point in adding in .10-.20cc to have to go back and take .5-1cc back out because it was too tight and causing problems.
Anyway,
this is plenty long enough! The nice hotel bed is looking warm and inviting behind me! 14 hours on a bus to get to Bloomington, MN. I can turn to my right and look out our hotel room window and see the Mall of America. Our destination! So I'm going to go rest and get ready for the days ahead. Though I must admit, it will be hard to sleep without my big ole black lab right next to me. But somehow I think I will manage. *_*
Until Next Time ~Princess Jenn~
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Better late, than never!
So this is no where near my best picture. It was at Cracker Barrel (as usual) after a 2 mile walk and a big meal. For me it was a big meal.
Sept 23rd, 2009 - 2 days b4 surg. _____Aug 18th, 2009 (-60lbs)
Shirt size - 5X (& snug) ________Shirt size - 3X (feelin' loose)
Sept 23rd, 2009 - 2 days b4 surg. _____Aug 18th, 2009 (-60lbs)
Shirt size - 5X (& snug) ________Shirt size - 3X (feelin' loose)
I've been waiting on this picture for a while because of the fluctuation in my weight. It finally feels like I am really starting to lose again. I've lost off and on for the past few months but it is all been the same weight over and over again.
Now I am at a restriction that I feel comfortable with. There are plenty of foods that are hard to tolerate but then there are things I can do without a problem.
But now I need to get to bed. I'll get a better picture. Who knows it could be my One year pic. It is coming up quickly!!
Now I am at a restriction that I feel comfortable with. There are plenty of foods that are hard to tolerate but then there are things I can do without a problem.
But now I need to get to bed. I'll get a better picture. Who knows it could be my One year pic. It is coming up quickly!!
Until next time! ~Princess Jenn~
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Doing pretty good since my 7/7 fill!
I am finally getting something posted. I've started to do a post like a hundred times it seems but I just haven't been able to get it done. I have all these ideas of thing I want to say but by the time I make it to my computer, my mind goes blank. Like for instance, I am at work right now. I have been here since 11pm and I'm just working on this post now six hours later. I'm still not even sure in what direction this post is headed. lol.
I did make it to cherry festival and shared a corn dog with my dad. I wanted the whole thing to myself but I couldn't eat it all. (In reality I probably could have eaten the whole thing had I eaten slower, still working on getting better at that) That was on Sunday. I didn't get my fill until Tuesday. Now before surgery I could have eaten at least 2 and still have room for more. Since my fill I have been trying to watch my protein intake and getting my fluids in. I'm not doing so hot on the fluids. But I am getting better about my food choices. I have to be with what I can eat. A girl can't afford to waste what little bit of room she has on something that isn't worth it.
So it has been a little over a week since my last fill. To say it was a good visit would be a lie. I gained another 4lbs! Of course the tops scale didn't reflect the same thing that night. But it was still a gain there too. Which considering that I had been sick for so long, it could have been much worse. But now I am hoping to start back on the losers path.
Anyway, I left with .25cc more in my band than I went in with. I'm up to 4.0cc's. Yippeeee. I am at that point where my band can end up being too tight or feeling no restriction. Since I was too tight at 4.5cc, Dr K said from now on I will get fill's .10cc at a time. Yes, that's right, a tenth of a cc at a time. Dr K told me not to get discouraged since I am almost a yr out from surgery & haven't lost as much as I should/could and that people sometimes start to think "I could have just dieted to get here"
Well yes and no. I definitely feel defeated more days lately than I feel like this has been a success. But then I try to stop and remind myself how long of a journey this has been. (Boy there are days I have to really remind myself how far I've come. 50-60lbs is better than gaining or not still being at my heaviest.) . I have to look at all the obstacles I've had to face since my surgery in September. I know that I went 3 whole months without a fill in my band because of my 2nd surgery.
Anyway, I better close for now. I am starting to get tired. Which isn't a good thing. I've been here at work sitting as a safety companion since 11pm. (Why I volunteered I'm not really sure at this point!) I have 9 more hours to go. At least I get to go do my "real" job for the last 8 of them. Sucks to be me at this point in time. It better be worth it come payday!
I need to wrap this up for now. I need to get my books and stuff together to start my real job as mentioned above. It will be 7am before I know it. I hope the same can be true for 3pm :)
Until next time,
~Princess Jenn~
I did make it to cherry festival and shared a corn dog with my dad. I wanted the whole thing to myself but I couldn't eat it all. (In reality I probably could have eaten the whole thing had I eaten slower, still working on getting better at that) That was on Sunday. I didn't get my fill until Tuesday. Now before surgery I could have eaten at least 2 and still have room for more. Since my fill I have been trying to watch my protein intake and getting my fluids in. I'm not doing so hot on the fluids. But I am getting better about my food choices. I have to be with what I can eat. A girl can't afford to waste what little bit of room she has on something that isn't worth it.
So it has been a little over a week since my last fill. To say it was a good visit would be a lie. I gained another 4lbs! Of course the tops scale didn't reflect the same thing that night. But it was still a gain there too. Which considering that I had been sick for so long, it could have been much worse. But now I am hoping to start back on the losers path.
Anyway, I left with .25cc more in my band than I went in with. I'm up to 4.0cc's. Yippeeee. I am at that point where my band can end up being too tight or feeling no restriction. Since I was too tight at 4.5cc, Dr K said from now on I will get fill's .10cc at a time. Yes, that's right, a tenth of a cc at a time. Dr K told me not to get discouraged since I am almost a yr out from surgery & haven't lost as much as I should/could and that people sometimes start to think "I could have just dieted to get here"
Well yes and no. I definitely feel defeated more days lately than I feel like this has been a success. But then I try to stop and remind myself how long of a journey this has been. (Boy there are days I have to really remind myself how far I've come. 50-60lbs is better than gaining or not still being at my heaviest.) . I have to look at all the obstacles I've had to face since my surgery in September. I know that I went 3 whole months without a fill in my band because of my 2nd surgery.
Anyway, I better close for now. I am starting to get tired. Which isn't a good thing. I've been here at work sitting as a safety companion since 11pm. (Why I volunteered I'm not really sure at this point!) I have 9 more hours to go. At least I get to go do my "real" job for the last 8 of them. Sucks to be me at this point in time. It better be worth it come payday!
I need to wrap this up for now. I need to get my books and stuff together to start my real job as mentioned above. It will be 7am before I know it. I hope the same can be true for 3pm :)
Until next time,
~Princess Jenn~
Friday, July 3, 2009
Picture from my ID badge at work.
The other day a coworker mentioned to me that I really needed a new name badge. Now being not totally on top of things I looked at my nametag to double check that I hadn't broken it.
Obviously, what he meant was that the picture no longer looks like me. At the time I didn't think I looked too bad in it. Now of course, after looking at it I loathe it! But yet, I still love it. It is a nice straight picture of my face, that very clearly shows off my many chins I had that never really noticed! Since then I have been checking my nametag daily to remind myself that even though I am having one of those awful days where I feel like I'm bigger than I was before surgery,I am on the right track.
Jennifer Thursday, July 2, 2009
Healthier & Happier days from here on in!
Here are some quick thoughts before I head to bed! I have been so bad about posting (and weight loss) lately. But I promise I haven't been going all hog wild this whole time. Maybe a little bit here and there but nothing too bad :)
For anyone who has talked to me over the last 2 months knows I had been sicker than a dog for what seemed like forever. I was sick with bronchitis/sinus infection for over 6 weeks! Its pretty bad when you walk into the pharmacy and they say "Hi Jennifer, it'll be ready in just a few minutes. When I seen your name come up I knew you would be right in." That was the 3rd time I have been to the Munson Pharmacy in a months time. Its a good thing I can use my name tag to pay for all that antibiotics and everything else they put me on to get me better. And it's about time too.
I knew something wasn't right when after losing 50-60lbs (depending on the weeks weigh in) I was more tired going up 1 flight of stairs than I would have been going up 2 pre-surgery. I hope that made sense. It does in my head. Of course it is past my bedtime.
I just can't say enough how great today was. It was a crazy, busy day that kept going and going and didn't seem like it would ever end. But after being sick and overwhelmed with everything from money (lack of) to bills (an over abundance of) to housework (an never ending job) today felt like reassurance that I can handle this life and journey that I'm on and come out better than I had hoped. Now come tomorrow, I probably won't be so optimistic. But for now I am going to savor this.
Also, I am enjoying just being Jennifer. Actually, that Princess Jennifer to you. While I was at my worst, I had my 3 1/2 year old niece Adrianna. That lil snot is a busy bee. I'm lucky I survived. Thanks in a major way due to Sharon. She helped by babysitting Adrianna while I was at work for 3 very long 12 hour days. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you Sharon. Not long after Adrianna went home, my nephews came to visit. Alex & Flipper aka Phillip. Those busy boys, 6 1/2 and 5 respectively, were here for 6 whole days. Them boys got to see go to Aunt Sharon's too.
Now I love all 3 of them little cuties to pieces but once I got my bed back, It was amazing! I slept like I hadn't in months. I had finally quit coughing and was on the road to feeling better. Which is partly why I chose to have surgery in the 1st place. Even as sick as I had been during the time the short people were here, it was so much easier than it was last year when I was at my heaviest. I take pride in being the cool, fun aunt who gets on the floor to play with the kids, the aunt that takes them to the beach and throws and chases them in the swimming pool.
This is way too long but oh well. I am now too tired to bother cutting it down. I'll just consider it making up for my silence since May.
Until next time ~ Princess Jenn
For anyone who has talked to me over the last 2 months knows I had been sicker than a dog for what seemed like forever. I was sick with bronchitis/sinus infection for over 6 weeks! Its pretty bad when you walk into the pharmacy and they say "Hi Jennifer, it'll be ready in just a few minutes. When I seen your name come up I knew you would be right in." That was the 3rd time I have been to the Munson Pharmacy in a months time. Its a good thing I can use my name tag to pay for all that antibiotics and everything else they put me on to get me better. And it's about time too.
I knew something wasn't right when after losing 50-60lbs (depending on the weeks weigh in) I was more tired going up 1 flight of stairs than I would have been going up 2 pre-surgery. I hope that made sense. It does in my head. Of course it is past my bedtime.
I just can't say enough how great today was. It was a crazy, busy day that kept going and going and didn't seem like it would ever end. But after being sick and overwhelmed with everything from money (lack of) to bills (an over abundance of) to housework (an never ending job) today felt like reassurance that I can handle this life and journey that I'm on and come out better than I had hoped. Now come tomorrow, I probably won't be so optimistic. But for now I am going to savor this.
Also, I am enjoying just being Jennifer. Actually, that Princess Jennifer to you. While I was at my worst, I had my 3 1/2 year old niece Adrianna. That lil snot is a busy bee. I'm lucky I survived. Thanks in a major way due to Sharon. She helped by babysitting Adrianna while I was at work for 3 very long 12 hour days. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you Sharon. Not long after Adrianna went home, my nephews came to visit. Alex & Flipper aka Phillip. Those busy boys, 6 1/2 and 5 respectively, were here for 6 whole days. Them boys got to see go to Aunt Sharon's too.
Now I love all 3 of them little cuties to pieces but once I got my bed back, It was amazing! I slept like I hadn't in months. I had finally quit coughing and was on the road to feeling better. Which is partly why I chose to have surgery in the 1st place. Even as sick as I had been during the time the short people were here, it was so much easier than it was last year when I was at my heaviest. I take pride in being the cool, fun aunt who gets on the floor to play with the kids, the aunt that takes them to the beach and throws and chases them in the swimming pool.
This is way too long but oh well. I am now too tired to bother cutting it down. I'll just consider it making up for my silence since May.
Until next time ~ Princess Jenn
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Lift what you lost at MI TOPS SRD May 2009
So a couple weekends ago I went to the TOPS MI SRD (State Recognition Days) in Port Huron. Along with all the big (weight) losers they had an awesome motivation speaker by the name of Jodi Davis. She lost 162lbs. Now that is motivational.
They also had booth where you lift what you've lost, in pounds. In the above picture I am holding 46lbs. See that look on my face. That is from the burden of holding that 46lbs of food for like 2 mins. Man, oh man, I don't know how I carried it all the time. Also, at the time of this photo I was actually down 55lbs! It was 9lbs less than what I had lost. After a minute of holding that weight I not only was it awkward standing there with that amount of weight but I started to feel warm and my back started to hurt right away.
Anyway, for now I should go. I will be posting later on tonight or tom about my latest fill. Yuppers! I got another fill.
~Princess Jenn~
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Making strides! :)
So I need to be better about posting. I have had so many milestones lately. First off my last fill went very well! No more fills in the procedure room anymore *crosses fingers*
I have been starting to lose again since my fill on April 28th and cloths are starting to get loose again. I tried on a couple shirts last week or so at Meijer. Sharon wanted to look at cloths so I thought “what the heck, what have I got to lose just trying on a top or 2” well I fell in love this really pretty top. They only had 1. Well I tried it on anyway over top of my shift I was wearing. The shirt I was wearing when I went into the store was a 5X and the shirt I tried on was only a 3X. It fits beautifully! I love it. I also tried on a 2X too. I figure I would just see. The 2X fit! It wasn’t anything I felt comfortable enough to wear in public but it felt good. It felt pretty good. I hugged my curves more than I liked but if it was not uncomfortable. Anyway back to awesome 3X, since Meijer had a rack of tops on sale buy one get one half off. Sharon and I each got a top and split the price. So we each saved like 5 bucks. Anyway, I wore it this last weekend to our Tops SRD (State Recognition Days) on Saturday even though at first I didn’t feel that comfortable in it. Then on Sunday I wore the 5X top (the shirt I am wearing in all my progress pics) and I felt so sloppy and just gross because it just didn’t feel comfortable anymore. So that shirt is going into my cloths bin to keep for a later time to see what I used to wear. Plus I will have that to keep for the “Before and After” parade next year at SRD. Each year, as long as you maintain a 50# weight loss you can walk across the stage and hold up what size you used to wear and then show how you look currently. What an inspiration seeing all those people come out from behind their own cloths so much trimmer and HEALTHIER.
Anyway, I guess my main point to this post tonight. (I apologize I am still not really awake yet from the weekend, lol.) I am more motivated than ever! After seeing those weight loss winners walk across stage was so inspiring. There was gal, our Michigan state Queen, she lost 179.25#. I would love to loose that much. It gives me a feeling that if she can loose that amount of weight on her own, without weight loss surgery, then there is no reason that I can’t loose that much with my lap band. Also, our motivation speaker, Jodi Davis (walkytalk.com) lost 162 lbs! Oh my goodness, how can a person, without having to be a tops member not being inspired by those numbers. Each day I get more and more motivated.
Every time I started to feel down or negative I take myself back to that Meijer store. Back to that moment when I tried on shirt 3 sizes smaller that actually fit.
Until then I am off to try to get some good sleep. I am hoping to make it to the park tomorrow for a nice long walk. HAHA. I’ll see how tom goes.
~Princess Jenn~
I have been starting to lose again since my fill on April 28th and cloths are starting to get loose again. I tried on a couple shirts last week or so at Meijer. Sharon wanted to look at cloths so I thought “what the heck, what have I got to lose just trying on a top or 2” well I fell in love this really pretty top. They only had 1. Well I tried it on anyway over top of my shift I was wearing. The shirt I was wearing when I went into the store was a 5X and the shirt I tried on was only a 3X. It fits beautifully! I love it. I also tried on a 2X too. I figure I would just see. The 2X fit! It wasn’t anything I felt comfortable enough to wear in public but it felt good. It felt pretty good. I hugged my curves more than I liked but if it was not uncomfortable. Anyway back to awesome 3X, since Meijer had a rack of tops on sale buy one get one half off. Sharon and I each got a top and split the price. So we each saved like 5 bucks. Anyway, I wore it this last weekend to our Tops SRD (State Recognition Days) on Saturday even though at first I didn’t feel that comfortable in it. Then on Sunday I wore the 5X top (the shirt I am wearing in all my progress pics) and I felt so sloppy and just gross because it just didn’t feel comfortable anymore. So that shirt is going into my cloths bin to keep for a later time to see what I used to wear. Plus I will have that to keep for the “Before and After” parade next year at SRD. Each year, as long as you maintain a 50# weight loss you can walk across the stage and hold up what size you used to wear and then show how you look currently. What an inspiration seeing all those people come out from behind their own cloths so much trimmer and HEALTHIER.
Anyway, I guess my main point to this post tonight. (I apologize I am still not really awake yet from the weekend, lol.) I am more motivated than ever! After seeing those weight loss winners walk across stage was so inspiring. There was gal, our Michigan state Queen, she lost 179.25#. I would love to loose that much. It gives me a feeling that if she can loose that amount of weight on her own, without weight loss surgery, then there is no reason that I can’t loose that much with my lap band. Also, our motivation speaker, Jodi Davis (walkytalk.com) lost 162 lbs! Oh my goodness, how can a person, without having to be a tops member not being inspired by those numbers. Each day I get more and more motivated.
Every time I started to feel down or negative I take myself back to that Meijer store. Back to that moment when I tried on shirt 3 sizes smaller that actually fit.
Until then I am off to try to get some good sleep. I am hoping to make it to the park tomorrow for a nice long walk. HAHA. I’ll see how tom goes.
~Princess Jenn~
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Here is a post I actually did last week but somehow got put off adding until now :)
I got a fill this past tuesday. (April 28th) Which is about time since I have spent most of time since surgery with what feels like no restriction. After I finally got a fill on March 3rd I thought things would start going in the right direction with my weight. The right direction being down. That did happen for 3 weeks. Only because I couldn't keep anything down! I tried staying on the graduated diet like right after surgery, but even then anything more than a 2 bites and it didnt stay down. Plus it hurt like hell. The pressure I felt after a bite went all way thru to my back. Felt like someone was pushing me earlly hard, or a I had a my 6 1/2 yr old nephew standing there. Even if food did stay down I was still starving all the time. Which defeats the purpose of having this band in the first place. Anyway, by week 3 I was still not keeping really anything down and dropped 16lbs. So back the doctor went. Then for an esophogram. My band was way too tight. A drinkof barium took 30-40 seconds from the time it got to where my band is located to actually pass thru it. Yes, it is supposed to take longer for food to go thru, that how you stay feeling full longer. However this was liquid. Water made feel sick and full too. Anyway, next thing I knew I was scheduled to go back to the procedure room to get an "unfill". So on march 27, I went in and got 2.5cc of my 5cc from my band taken out. I was so bummed that so much had to come out. I had only gotten a fill of 1.5cc when i went in on the 3rd. And I knew that my next fill would be a wait away again. Along with the the pain and discomfort of a band being too tight thre is a high risk of the band slipping. I'm not really sure about the reason behind this. I think one risk is constantly having to be sick can move band.
Needless to say, I put back on those 16lbs very easily. With only 2.5cc in my band I felt no restriction. Plus I managed to get my nephews during that time. Do you know what kind of foods kids eat? Yummy junk food of course! But now it's all gone. So no more temptations.
Now this last fill I got was in the procedure room but this time no fluoro! As usual Dr K. gave it a try without the xray on and it worked. He actually found the port and accessed it pretty quickly. I was so happy when he said "we're in. cancel xray" also that I should call and get my next fill scheduled in the office for 4 weeks. Then I even got a high five! I know both of us were so happy about that.
I am going to wrap this up for now. Wish me luck. It's been 2 days since my fill and so far so good. I feel pretty good.
I got a fill this past tuesday. (April 28th) Which is about time since I have spent most of time since surgery with what feels like no restriction. After I finally got a fill on March 3rd I thought things would start going in the right direction with my weight. The right direction being down. That did happen for 3 weeks. Only because I couldn't keep anything down! I tried staying on the graduated diet like right after surgery, but even then anything more than a 2 bites and it didnt stay down. Plus it hurt like hell. The pressure I felt after a bite went all way thru to my back. Felt like someone was pushing me earlly hard, or a I had a my 6 1/2 yr old nephew standing there. Even if food did stay down I was still starving all the time. Which defeats the purpose of having this band in the first place. Anyway, by week 3 I was still not keeping really anything down and dropped 16lbs. So back the doctor went. Then for an esophogram. My band was way too tight. A drinkof barium took 30-40 seconds from the time it got to where my band is located to actually pass thru it. Yes, it is supposed to take longer for food to go thru, that how you stay feeling full longer. However this was liquid. Water made feel sick and full too. Anyway, next thing I knew I was scheduled to go back to the procedure room to get an "unfill". So on march 27, I went in and got 2.5cc of my 5cc from my band taken out. I was so bummed that so much had to come out. I had only gotten a fill of 1.5cc when i went in on the 3rd. And I knew that my next fill would be a wait away again. Along with the the pain and discomfort of a band being too tight thre is a high risk of the band slipping. I'm not really sure about the reason behind this. I think one risk is constantly having to be sick can move band.
Needless to say, I put back on those 16lbs very easily. With only 2.5cc in my band I felt no restriction. Plus I managed to get my nephews during that time. Do you know what kind of foods kids eat? Yummy junk food of course! But now it's all gone. So no more temptations.
Now this last fill I got was in the procedure room but this time no fluoro! As usual Dr K. gave it a try without the xray on and it worked. He actually found the port and accessed it pretty quickly. I was so happy when he said "we're in. cancel xray" also that I should call and get my next fill scheduled in the office for 4 weeks. Then I even got a high five! I know both of us were so happy about that.
I am going to wrap this up for now. Wish me luck. It's been 2 days since my fill and so far so good. I feel pretty good.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Progress! Finally :)
Sept 23 - 2 Days before surgery// Mar 10 (-53lbs from highest!)
Signing off, working on being more healthy and positive :)
So tonight was tops as usual. Followed by dinner at our usual (Cracker Barrel). Last Tuesday I couldn't even keep down sips of coffee. I was able to keep down some tomato soup here and there since then. Well today at work I decided to try some mashed potatoes. It stayed down! What a good feeling. But it got even better at dinner. I shared a dinner with my dad. I had chicken & more taters. That stayed down. I feel pretty good even. I have a little bit of pain in my back but it is nothing like the pressure I have/had when I have tried before. This is more along the lines of being from being full. I realize that sounds ironic that I was happy to be able to eat and keep it down. Well, this is the first real food I have been able to eat and KEEP down since my fill on 3/3/09. After everything that has happened since my banding (flipped port, seroma, infected incision, blister on my incision, 2 failed attempts at fills since Dec surgery) I was very, very concerned that with my luck, that my band had slipped. The feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop. My luck has been lately, if something is going to happen it's going to happen to me.
Yes, I am trying to be more positive. Having my most recent fill has helped my morale.
Signing off, working on being more healthy and positive :)
~Jennifer~
Monday, March 9, 2009
Finally got a fill!
So my last post was hoping I was going to get a fill at my appt on 2/19. Well that didn't happen. I had to wait 2 more weeks before I could get it. After several (7-8) attempts in the office, I was scheduled for the procedure room at munson on 3/3 on my day off. I spend way too much time at that place.
I made it to my appt, and left with 1.5cc more in my band than I went in with. It was about time.
Unfortunately, it hasn't been all rosy and fun since then. I feel like I have been the same staged diet that I was on after surgery. At least now I can keep down clear and full liquids. For the day and a half that followed my fill I didn't keep anything down.
I was so freaked out that by thursday morning I had an appt scheduled with Dr K. To say I was more than a little worried that my band may have slipped is putting it mildly! I figured with my luck it was bound to happen. By the time my appt came I was able to keep down coffee, juice, milk and even a half a container of yogurt. We decided to hold off on trying to take anything out of my band. My next adjustment is scheduled for 3/31 in the procedure room again. I'm just trying to stay positive until then. I haven't eat, sorry, drank much of anything this last week. I'm sure I will have a loss tomorrow at tops. It better be worth it. Cuz man I would do just about anything at this point to be able to eat a steak! Well anything that is more filling than apple juice and Popsicles. Even a protein shake sounds good. Now that's bad. Maybe tomorrow will be easier. There's me trying to be positive. Are you convinced? Me either.
I am looking forward to scrapbooking thou. Less than 2 weeks to go. I am going to try to get another updated photo. I am so close to being officially down 50lbs. Now after all this I am ready to get back to work. Nothing worse than having too much time on your hands to know exactly how miserable you feel. See, I am really am a ray of sunshine!
Until next time
~Jennifer~
I made it to my appt, and left with 1.5cc more in my band than I went in with. It was about time.
Unfortunately, it hasn't been all rosy and fun since then. I feel like I have been the same staged diet that I was on after surgery. At least now I can keep down clear and full liquids. For the day and a half that followed my fill I didn't keep anything down.
I was so freaked out that by thursday morning I had an appt scheduled with Dr K. To say I was more than a little worried that my band may have slipped is putting it mildly! I figured with my luck it was bound to happen. By the time my appt came I was able to keep down coffee, juice, milk and even a half a container of yogurt. We decided to hold off on trying to take anything out of my band. My next adjustment is scheduled for 3/31 in the procedure room again. I'm just trying to stay positive until then. I haven't eat, sorry, drank much of anything this last week. I'm sure I will have a loss tomorrow at tops. It better be worth it. Cuz man I would do just about anything at this point to be able to eat a steak! Well anything that is more filling than apple juice and Popsicles. Even a protein shake sounds good. Now that's bad. Maybe tomorrow will be easier. There's me trying to be positive. Are you convinced? Me either.
I am looking forward to scrapbooking thou. Less than 2 weeks to go. I am going to try to get another updated photo. I am so close to being officially down 50lbs. Now after all this I am ready to get back to work. Nothing worse than having too much time on your hands to know exactly how miserable you feel. See, I am really am a ray of sunshine!
Until next time
~Jennifer~
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Wish me luck for my Dr K. appt (fill?) on 2/19
So just one last thought before I tuck myself into bed.
Wish me luck as I see Dr. K. tom. My last appt, he tried to do a "fill" but with all the swelling from seroma & the incision site being open we couldn't do it.
I have Jello made & packed with some juice for my lunch/dinner after my appt tom. Since after a fill, its clear liquids for the rest of the day.
I will say another pray before bed hope for the best. I'm ready to start on a long loosing streak!
~Princess Jenn~
Wish me luck as I see Dr. K. tom. My last appt, he tried to do a "fill" but with all the swelling from seroma & the incision site being open we couldn't do it.
I have Jello made & packed with some juice for my lunch/dinner after my appt tom. Since after a fill, its clear liquids for the rest of the day.
I will say another pray before bed hope for the best. I'm ready to start on a long loosing streak!
~Princess Jenn~
So much to do, so little free time
So I admit I have not been as good about this blog as I intended to be. It’s been a long couple of weeks.
Well first things first. My incision is so close to being healed up. It’s only about the size of the tip of a q-tip. I’m getting anxious, ok, been there a while. I want to go to water aerobics so bad. I’ve had my enrollment & payment slip ready since Dec. I was about to start when I found out I had to have surgery in the first place.
My weight has been pretty much staying still. What I gained while I was sick, I took back off. It didn’t seem fair, I still felt like I was at my lower weight, but the scale said otherwise. All that coughing had to have burned some calories. But I’m moving on.
At tops, I got a new job. I am now the weight recorder. My very 1st night, I had 2 new ppl that joined. Talk about jumping in with both feets.
As far as everything else goes, aka my mental status, motivation, slips and like. I am doing okay. I have pretty much stay on an even stride with my motivation. I have a few of my before photo’s pinned, taped and hanging up in my home. On the bathroom mirror, on my nightstand, in my purse, by the tv and of course on on the fridge. This keeps me in check. Plus I have learned if I don’t deny myself. If I have “goodies” in the house, I can have a little and be satisfied. Where as, if I tell myself its off limits, it drives me nuts that I cannot have it.
Then last week a coworker from the hospital has lapband surgery too. Even though its a guy (and they naturally loose faster) I don’t feel like I am as alone in the journey. I have people of support at the tip of my fingers, it feels different now that its someone I have known for a while who is going thru this whole deal too. I will be able to see his success, where as I can’t always see mine. I feel how my cloths fit, and home much better I feel already.
My scrapbook keeps me motivated too. I can see my timeline, and the letter I wrote to myself that I have at the beginning of my book and see why I made the decision in the first place.
I will be seeing my sisters and niece and nephews soon. I have seen my oldest sister Michelle most recently in January. But my other sister, Amy, I am curious if she will be able to tell when she sees me. I haven’t seen her since the end of Nov. I am excited to see them regardless of whether or not they can tell. But I have lost like 25-30 more since I have seen Amy.
Now it’s getting to be past when I should have been in bed. So many things to do in such a short time, I don’t know how I get anything done during the work week. I like my long weekends, but these 12 hour days don’t leave much time for getting much done before you have to get ready to start the whole routine all over again the next day. I will be making exercise fit in there somehow. The warm pool for water aerobics sounds so good right about now.
Until then I am headed to bed! :)
As always,
~Princess Jenn~
Well first things first. My incision is so close to being healed up. It’s only about the size of the tip of a q-tip. I’m getting anxious, ok, been there a while. I want to go to water aerobics so bad. I’ve had my enrollment & payment slip ready since Dec. I was about to start when I found out I had to have surgery in the first place.
My weight has been pretty much staying still. What I gained while I was sick, I took back off. It didn’t seem fair, I still felt like I was at my lower weight, but the scale said otherwise. All that coughing had to have burned some calories. But I’m moving on.
At tops, I got a new job. I am now the weight recorder. My very 1st night, I had 2 new ppl that joined. Talk about jumping in with both feets.
As far as everything else goes, aka my mental status, motivation, slips and like. I am doing okay. I have pretty much stay on an even stride with my motivation. I have a few of my before photo’s pinned, taped and hanging up in my home. On the bathroom mirror, on my nightstand, in my purse, by the tv and of course on on the fridge. This keeps me in check. Plus I have learned if I don’t deny myself. If I have “goodies” in the house, I can have a little and be satisfied. Where as, if I tell myself its off limits, it drives me nuts that I cannot have it.
Then last week a coworker from the hospital has lapband surgery too. Even though its a guy (and they naturally loose faster) I don’t feel like I am as alone in the journey. I have people of support at the tip of my fingers, it feels different now that its someone I have known for a while who is going thru this whole deal too. I will be able to see his success, where as I can’t always see mine. I feel how my cloths fit, and home much better I feel already.
My scrapbook keeps me motivated too. I can see my timeline, and the letter I wrote to myself that I have at the beginning of my book and see why I made the decision in the first place.
I will be seeing my sisters and niece and nephews soon. I have seen my oldest sister Michelle most recently in January. But my other sister, Amy, I am curious if she will be able to tell when she sees me. I haven’t seen her since the end of Nov. I am excited to see them regardless of whether or not they can tell. But I have lost like 25-30 more since I have seen Amy.
Now it’s getting to be past when I should have been in bed. So many things to do in such a short time, I don’t know how I get anything done during the work week. I like my long weekends, but these 12 hour days don’t leave much time for getting much done before you have to get ready to start the whole routine all over again the next day. I will be making exercise fit in there somehow. The warm pool for water aerobics sounds so good right about now.
Until then I am headed to bed! :)
As always,
~Princess Jenn~
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Weekly weigh in: ( -7.75lbs )
I got my weight loss I wanted/needed so badly tonight. This has not been my best week at all. Unlike, last week when I was looking forward to weighing in at tops and then the meeting was cancelled. I was motivated, excited and ready for the new year as a bandster. Not so much this week. Don't get me wrong, I am very happy with my weight loss and having my band. I am just having issues.
It seems like if it isn't one thing, it is another. I am trying my best to take each day as it comes and make the best choices I can while trying and stay positive.
I know this is short but I really am not sure what I want to say and how to say it. I have had a migraine for a week & I'm ready for bed. I need to get myself into bed.
So until next time.
~ Jennifer ~
It seems like if it isn't one thing, it is another. I am trying my best to take each day as it comes and make the best choices I can while trying and stay positive.
I know this is short but I really am not sure what I want to say and how to say it. I have had a migraine for a week & I'm ready for bed. I need to get myself into bed.
So until next time.
~ Jennifer ~
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Back to Work = Exhaustion!
After 2 weeks of being bored out of my mind at home I got to go back to work. All the while being told, "take it easy" and "don't do to much". Well of course, I didn't because I as not nearly up for anything. With the pain and (yuck!) draining I didnt get much done in or outside of my home.
Now most people kind of ease back into work and try not to overdo it the 1st week back. Not me! I came back to work in full force. It's too much to get into by my 5 day stretch then 2 more days then 4 days off turned into 8 days in a row (with 6 days being 10-12 hrs a piece). I got home from work on Thursday night and I was so tired I fell asleep on the couch before grey's anatomy! I pulled myself off the couch at 6am long enough to let the dog out and feed the vicious guard cats before falling into my real bed. It was so nice and comfy. My dog was so good and stayed by my side as I slept the day away from sheer exhaustion. I'm surprised the poor dog still likes me since as I write this I am back to work after my not-nearly-long-enough weekend to work some more.
I took it easy, as I am still healing, that was until my sister called and said she was coming to visit. To be honest I did as little as possible since surgery since I didn't dare do anymore damage to my poor body. Well that didn't work. Apparently bending over to sweep & mop, oh yeah and litter boxes was not a good idea! I was so doggone tired & sore that when my sister called to tell me she had to turn around due to car problems I was a little relieved. Don't get me wrong,I LOVE my sister and niece deerly but it's hard enough to try to rest & heal without others around. My little button Adrianna, is so big and I knew I wouldnt be able to lift her. Ya know those times I have had to get her off the counter cuz she chased the cats up there and wanted to be near them. Duh! What better place to be near them than by their food dish! Plus there is the whole swimming issue. I can't swim with my incision still open. I miss that hot tub so much! I am way overdue for that hot tub on my back.
I didn't get to weigh in at tops on Tuesday but because of the weather it was cancelled. I would have happily weighed in anyway but no one else would have been there. And after getting a flat tire on the way to work I really couldn't anything short of a 5lbs loss. lol. So I will update after next weigh in.
But until next time!.
~ Princess Jenn ~
Now most people kind of ease back into work and try not to overdo it the 1st week back. Not me! I came back to work in full force. It's too much to get into by my 5 day stretch then 2 more days then 4 days off turned into 8 days in a row (with 6 days being 10-12 hrs a piece). I got home from work on Thursday night and I was so tired I fell asleep on the couch before grey's anatomy! I pulled myself off the couch at 6am long enough to let the dog out and feed the vicious guard cats before falling into my real bed. It was so nice and comfy. My dog was so good and stayed by my side as I slept the day away from sheer exhaustion. I'm surprised the poor dog still likes me since as I write this I am back to work after my not-nearly-long-enough weekend to work some more.
I took it easy, as I am still healing, that was until my sister called and said she was coming to visit. To be honest I did as little as possible since surgery since I didn't dare do anymore damage to my poor body. Well that didn't work. Apparently bending over to sweep & mop, oh yeah and litter boxes was not a good idea! I was so doggone tired & sore that when my sister called to tell me she had to turn around due to car problems I was a little relieved. Don't get me wrong,I LOVE my sister and niece deerly but it's hard enough to try to rest & heal without others around. My little button Adrianna, is so big and I knew I wouldnt be able to lift her. Ya know those times I have had to get her off the counter cuz she chased the cats up there and wanted to be near them. Duh! What better place to be near them than by their food dish! Plus there is the whole swimming issue. I can't swim with my incision still open. I miss that hot tub so much! I am way overdue for that hot tub on my back.
I didn't get to weigh in at tops on Tuesday but because of the weather it was cancelled. I would have happily weighed in anyway but no one else would have been there. And after getting a flat tire on the way to work I really couldn't anything short of a 5lbs loss. lol. So I will update after next weigh in.
But until next time!.
~ Princess Jenn ~
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