I am finally getting something posted. I've started to do a post like a hundred times it seems but I just haven't been able to get it done. I have all these ideas of thing I want to say but by the time I make it to my computer, my mind goes blank. Like for instance, I am at work right now. I have been here since 11pm and I'm just working on this post now six hours later. I'm still not even sure in what direction this post is headed. lol.
I did make it to cherry festival and shared a corn dog with my dad. I wanted the whole thing to myself but I couldn't eat it all. (In reality I probably could have eaten the whole thing had I eaten slower, still working on getting better at that) That was on Sunday. I didn't get my fill until Tuesday. Now before surgery I could have eaten at least 2 and still have room for more. Since my fill I have been trying to watch my protein intake and getting my fluids in. I'm not doing so hot on the fluids. But I am getting better about my food choices. I have to be with what I can eat. A girl can't afford to waste what little bit of room she has on something that isn't worth it.
So it has been a little over a week since my last fill. To say it was a good visit would be a lie. I gained another 4lbs! Of course the tops scale didn't reflect the same thing that night. But it was still a gain there too. Which considering that I had been sick for so long, it could have been much worse. But now I am hoping to start back on the losers path.
Anyway, I left with .25cc more in my band than I went in with. I'm up to 4.0cc's. Yippeeee. I am at that point where my band can end up being too tight or feeling no restriction. Since I was too tight at 4.5cc, Dr K said from now on I will get fill's .10cc at a time. Yes, that's right, a tenth of a cc at a time. Dr K told me not to get discouraged since I am almost a yr out from surgery & haven't lost as much as I should/could and that people sometimes start to think "I could have just dieted to get here"
Well yes and no. I definitely feel defeated more days lately than I feel like this has been a success. But then I try to stop and remind myself how long of a journey this has been. (Boy there are days I have to really remind myself how far I've come. 50-60lbs is better than gaining or not still being at my heaviest.) . I have to look at all the obstacles I've had to face since my surgery in September. I know that I went 3 whole months without a fill in my band because of my 2nd surgery.
Anyway, I better close for now. I am starting to get tired. Which isn't a good thing. I've been here at work sitting as a safety companion since 11pm. (Why I volunteered I'm not really sure at this point!) I have 9 more hours to go. At least I get to go do my "real" job for the last 8 of them. Sucks to be me at this point in time. It better be worth it come payday!
I need to wrap this up for now. I need to get my books and stuff together to start my real job as mentioned above. It will be 7am before I know it. I hope the same can be true for 3pm :)
Until next time,
~Princess Jenn~
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