I am finally getting something posted. I've started to do a post like a hundred times it seems but I just haven't been able to get it done. I have all these ideas of thing I want to say but by the time I make it to my computer, my mind goes blank. Like for instance, I am at work right now. I have been here since 11pm and I'm just working on this post now six hours later. I'm still not even sure in what direction this post is headed. lol.
I did make it to cherry festival and shared a corn dog with my dad. I wanted the whole thing to myself but I couldn't eat it all. (In reality I probably could have eaten the whole thing had I eaten slower, still working on getting better at that) That was on Sunday. I didn't get my fill until Tuesday. Now before surgery I could have eaten at least 2 and still have room for more. Since my fill I have been trying to watch my protein intake and getting my fluids in. I'm not doing so hot on the fluids. But I am getting better about my food choices. I have to be with what I can eat. A girl can't afford to waste what little bit of room she has on something that isn't worth it.
So it has been a little over a week since my last fill. To say it was a good visit would be a lie. I gained another 4lbs! Of course the tops scale didn't reflect the same thing that night. But it was still a gain there too. Which considering that I had been sick for so long, it could have been much worse. But now I am hoping to start back on the losers path.
Anyway, I left with .25cc more in my band than I went in with. I'm up to 4.0cc's. Yippeeee. I am at that point where my band can end up being too tight or feeling no restriction. Since I was too tight at 4.5cc, Dr K said from now on I will get fill's .10cc at a time. Yes, that's right, a tenth of a cc at a time. Dr K told me not to get discouraged since I am almost a yr out from surgery & haven't lost as much as I should/could and that people sometimes start to think "I could have just dieted to get here"
Well yes and no. I definitely feel defeated more days lately than I feel like this has been a success. But then I try to stop and remind myself how long of a journey this has been. (Boy there are days I have to really remind myself how far I've come. 50-60lbs is better than gaining or not still being at my heaviest.) . I have to look at all the obstacles I've had to face since my surgery in September. I know that I went 3 whole months without a fill in my band because of my 2nd surgery.
Anyway, I better close for now. I am starting to get tired. Which isn't a good thing. I've been here at work sitting as a safety companion since 11pm. (Why I volunteered I'm not really sure at this point!) I have 9 more hours to go. At least I get to go do my "real" job for the last 8 of them. Sucks to be me at this point in time. It better be worth it come payday!
I need to wrap this up for now. I need to get my books and stuff together to start my real job as mentioned above. It will be 7am before I know it. I hope the same can be true for 3pm :)
Until next time,
~Princess Jenn~
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Friday, July 3, 2009
Picture from my ID badge at work.
The other day a coworker mentioned to me that I really needed a new name badge. Now being not totally on top of things I looked at my nametag to double check that I hadn't broken it.
Obviously, what he meant was that the picture no longer looks like me. At the time I didn't think I looked too bad in it. Now of course, after looking at it I loathe it! But yet, I still love it. It is a nice straight picture of my face, that very clearly shows off my many chins I had that never really noticed! Since then I have been checking my nametag daily to remind myself that even though I am having one of those awful days where I feel like I'm bigger than I was before surgery,I am on the right track.
Jennifer Thursday, July 2, 2009
Healthier & Happier days from here on in!
Here are some quick thoughts before I head to bed! I have been so bad about posting (and weight loss) lately. But I promise I haven't been going all hog wild this whole time. Maybe a little bit here and there but nothing too bad :)
For anyone who has talked to me over the last 2 months knows I had been sicker than a dog for what seemed like forever. I was sick with bronchitis/sinus infection for over 6 weeks! Its pretty bad when you walk into the pharmacy and they say "Hi Jennifer, it'll be ready in just a few minutes. When I seen your name come up I knew you would be right in." That was the 3rd time I have been to the Munson Pharmacy in a months time. Its a good thing I can use my name tag to pay for all that antibiotics and everything else they put me on to get me better. And it's about time too.
I knew something wasn't right when after losing 50-60lbs (depending on the weeks weigh in) I was more tired going up 1 flight of stairs than I would have been going up 2 pre-surgery. I hope that made sense. It does in my head. Of course it is past my bedtime.
I just can't say enough how great today was. It was a crazy, busy day that kept going and going and didn't seem like it would ever end. But after being sick and overwhelmed with everything from money (lack of) to bills (an over abundance of) to housework (an never ending job) today felt like reassurance that I can handle this life and journey that I'm on and come out better than I had hoped. Now come tomorrow, I probably won't be so optimistic. But for now I am going to savor this.
Also, I am enjoying just being Jennifer. Actually, that Princess Jennifer to you. While I was at my worst, I had my 3 1/2 year old niece Adrianna. That lil snot is a busy bee. I'm lucky I survived. Thanks in a major way due to Sharon. She helped by babysitting Adrianna while I was at work for 3 very long 12 hour days. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you Sharon. Not long after Adrianna went home, my nephews came to visit. Alex & Flipper aka Phillip. Those busy boys, 6 1/2 and 5 respectively, were here for 6 whole days. Them boys got to see go to Aunt Sharon's too.
Now I love all 3 of them little cuties to pieces but once I got my bed back, It was amazing! I slept like I hadn't in months. I had finally quit coughing and was on the road to feeling better. Which is partly why I chose to have surgery in the 1st place. Even as sick as I had been during the time the short people were here, it was so much easier than it was last year when I was at my heaviest. I take pride in being the cool, fun aunt who gets on the floor to play with the kids, the aunt that takes them to the beach and throws and chases them in the swimming pool.
This is way too long but oh well. I am now too tired to bother cutting it down. I'll just consider it making up for my silence since May.
Until next time ~ Princess Jenn
For anyone who has talked to me over the last 2 months knows I had been sicker than a dog for what seemed like forever. I was sick with bronchitis/sinus infection for over 6 weeks! Its pretty bad when you walk into the pharmacy and they say "Hi Jennifer, it'll be ready in just a few minutes. When I seen your name come up I knew you would be right in." That was the 3rd time I have been to the Munson Pharmacy in a months time. Its a good thing I can use my name tag to pay for all that antibiotics and everything else they put me on to get me better. And it's about time too.
I knew something wasn't right when after losing 50-60lbs (depending on the weeks weigh in) I was more tired going up 1 flight of stairs than I would have been going up 2 pre-surgery. I hope that made sense. It does in my head. Of course it is past my bedtime.
I just can't say enough how great today was. It was a crazy, busy day that kept going and going and didn't seem like it would ever end. But after being sick and overwhelmed with everything from money (lack of) to bills (an over abundance of) to housework (an never ending job) today felt like reassurance that I can handle this life and journey that I'm on and come out better than I had hoped. Now come tomorrow, I probably won't be so optimistic. But for now I am going to savor this.
Also, I am enjoying just being Jennifer. Actually, that Princess Jennifer to you. While I was at my worst, I had my 3 1/2 year old niece Adrianna. That lil snot is a busy bee. I'm lucky I survived. Thanks in a major way due to Sharon. She helped by babysitting Adrianna while I was at work for 3 very long 12 hour days. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you Sharon. Not long after Adrianna went home, my nephews came to visit. Alex & Flipper aka Phillip. Those busy boys, 6 1/2 and 5 respectively, were here for 6 whole days. Them boys got to see go to Aunt Sharon's too.
Now I love all 3 of them little cuties to pieces but once I got my bed back, It was amazing! I slept like I hadn't in months. I had finally quit coughing and was on the road to feeling better. Which is partly why I chose to have surgery in the 1st place. Even as sick as I had been during the time the short people were here, it was so much easier than it was last year when I was at my heaviest. I take pride in being the cool, fun aunt who gets on the floor to play with the kids, the aunt that takes them to the beach and throws and chases them in the swimming pool.
This is way too long but oh well. I am now too tired to bother cutting it down. I'll just consider it making up for my silence since May.
Until next time ~ Princess Jenn
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